So I was waiting at the bus stop after school like I always do. It was hot; I was in jeans and a tank top. I walked into the little shelter thing that most bus stops have and sat down next to a black guy. He was dressed nicely, dark slacks and a button down shirt. Considering I was in a tanktop and burning up, I didn't know how he was managing. He sort of smiled and I asked how he wasn't burning up. He said he was very hot so I asked him why he was all dressed up. He said he'd had an interview or something to that affect.
So that's how we started talking. Something really just clicked between us; it's rather hard to describe. He liked my sunglasses (they're pink, go figure) so he tried them on and took a pic. I said very few men would admit to wearing pink sunglasses until I saw that his phone was a pink color and just started laughing. So we talked for the next half hour while waiting for the bus then sat together for the ride to downtown. We exchanged numbers and have been talking every day since.
He's from Kenya, been here just over a month. He's tall, dark and handsome. ;) I swear, I have a thing for foreign guys. I've dated two Koreans, an Indian and now an African. Oh yeah, dated two Americans. lol He's very intelligent, I enjoy learning about his culture and while not too much surprises him about America (heck, everyone around the world knows about us) he still enjoys asking me about things here that he doesn't have back home. He's one of the very few that I can talk to on the phone multiple times a day and not get irritated or bored.
He knows about Caleb and the situation with my ex. I am always upfront about that; the last thing I need is to really like someone and then they find out I have a kid and go running for the hills. It didn't phase him one bit and he too is amazed at the stupidity of my ex. Of course, everyone I've told about the situation has been shocked by how stupid and what an ass he really is. How I slept with him I still haven't figured out, and there are plenty of people who have questioned that...
So while we aren't *technically* an official item, we're pretty much together. My Indian ex, I don't think we really became "official" in the essence that one asked the other, it just started and continued. I got the same feeling with new guy as I did him. It's hard to explain but it's just one of those things that when you find it, it just feels right. I think about my ex a lot (not numbnuts, my most recent ex) and how I felt with him. While my guy really just brightens my day, I still think of the ex. I guess he's still going through the process of his divorce. There are times I want to call him or send him a message, just let him know I still think about him and hope he's doing well. Then I remember what he said to me and how crystal clear he made his feelings known and then I push the thought from my mind. That door was closed, why try to open it again? I see many similarities between the two men; they're only a couple years apart, and the way they both treated me, like I was their princess feels amazing.
So, I can see us lasting for quite a while. He knows my past and that I've screwed up in more than one area. While neither of us has seen the other's bad side, he knows where mine lies. Whenever he's asked about my ex I can hear in my own voice the almost hatred, the frustration and even the hurt. I can hear it, I know he can too. I've told him that this topic, especially when I'm in the thick of it and having to appear in court with him trying to take my boy away from me, is going to be a very frustrating. I told him that is when my bad side will show so I apologize in advance. He just said he understood and would probably feel the same way if he were in my position. He said he would be there to support me and just listen while I gripe. Sometimes that's all you need. I know it's going to be a rollercoaster of emotions for me. One minute I'm going to want to kill him, the next I'll be ready to break down in tears. I know that's what I'll do. Still, he knows all this and takes me as I am. While I always felt my Indian ex took me as I am, he couldn't handle my son. In a way I could understand, it would be hard for many men. Then...then he insulted my being American. Bad move. That made me question if he had always accepted me as is. It's glaringly obvious that I'm American. (Even if people do ask if I'm Chinese...) Why he would ever bring that distinction up I still don't understand.
New boy actually asked me if I, or my mom, would have an issue with my seeing a black guy. The thought hadn't even crossed my mind. I just said no, why would it be a problem? He just sort of shrugged and said he was just wondering. I told him the only thing that would bother both me and the family would be if he were to suddenly come to me and confess that he was actually a woman. He just burst out laughing; I thought he was going to fall over. I said that would be a problem but I was going to trust that he is in fact a man in which case all is well. He laughed again and reassured me that no, he's definitely all man. Right away, I could tell he was confident...you know what that means. ;)
So while it is still early for knowing each other, there is something special there; I can feel it. It's the same feeling I got with my other ex and I got to the point that I wanted to marry him. Of course this was before the giant fiasco that killed that thought and also our friendship. So we shall see where this takes us. He's 26, not too old (even though my mom questions it) but I prefer an older man, more mature. Guys my age don't know how to handle themselves let alone a female. I need a guy who is confident in himself, has some idea of what he wants in life, and knows how to handle me both in my future plans, my son, and in the bedroom. ;) Ok, the last one isn't necessary, I can always train him, but pre-trained and confident is always a plus. hehe Speaking of which, the boy claims to be well endowed and I don't doubt it. I asked him if the steriotypical "black guys have big dicks" is true. He sort of laughed and said, "uh...yeah!" I burst out laughing. He said it was for him anyways.
So naturally, I asked what he was and he said he didn't measure. Seriously. He's never measured and he doesn't jack off. Seriously. I thought he was just joking but no he was quite serious. I said wow, I feel like a total horn montster. I was surprised to hear he even watches porn. Here I watch porn and get off usually once a day, sometimes twice. I asked how he watches porn and then does nothing. He said if he gets really horny he'll just go take a shower.
So, I obviously couldn't resist teasing him a little. I told him I was going to cure him of that and proceeded to tell him all the naughty things I was going to do to him. I could tell it was driving him crazy. I can be quite explicit. ;) So once I got him good and ready (I'm sure he had a raging hard on) I told him to get up and get a shower. Cruel aren't I? Then I promptly changed the subject. So now when I see him or talk with him, I occassionally throw in a tidbit of my vivid imagination just to make him crazy. Then I'll get close to him and whisper in his ear that when I see him, I'm always in need of a shower. He just looks at me like if he could, he'd take me right there. Of course we're usually at school in a very public place so he looks all flustered and repeats that I'm driving him crazy. I whisper good and then kiss his neck or just rest my hand on his inner thigh. It wouldn't be glaringly obvious to anyone else but for him it speaks volumes.
I tell him that I feel like the guy in the relationship who is perpetually horny, ready anytime, anywhere, watches porn and gets off every day. Then, he's the good girl that doesn't do any of that and has perfect control. Thats when he looks at me and tells me that in the bedroom, he is anything but the "good girl" with perfect control. He just tells me that when he gets me, it's going to be amazing. I don't doubt it. He is confident, I can tell he knows how to handle himself and a girl and his stamina I'm almost certain is quite good. So I look forward to the day, he seems adventurous as am I, not afraid to do it outside the bedroom (I want to try to get him in a public place during the day as I have twice...great fun with the prospect of getting caught.) and the fact that he is well endowed gives him that extra boost of confidence. Yummy. :) So yes, I think we are matching up quite well and might just be together for quite some time. hehe
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