So as we were discussing the general psychological topic last week, she mentioned the anxiety disorder and thinking I might have that so, what did I think? I already have a seizure disorder so adding other disorders on top of it, I never find thrilling, especially not a mental disorder. I asked her why she thought I might have that and why she was fishing for a bizarre disorder. She mentioned how tremendously jumpy I am. One day, I was standing down in the laundry room, looking at a large quilt I was folding, suddenly looked up and she was simply standing in the doorway and I jumped back and let out a huge gasp with some weird noise. She also pointed out I had a bizarre look and my face like shook or quivered. Yeah, I was weird. So you can imagine if someone actually tries to scare me, it's bad. I've been like that for a very long time but she said no, I didn't use to be like that and something has changed.
I looked up the other signs of an anxiety disorder and really don't fit most of them so I pointed that out to her and we both got some laughs. She mentioned that I am often on her mind. She tells me often that I cannot worry so much about the things that I have no control over but I am "one of those people." Some things even if I "vent" regarding, doesn't make me feel any better. Other things if I vent over, will most likely get me in trouble. Thus, what do I do? Keep it all inside. What good does that do me? Absolutely fucking nothing! So with her thinking I have an "anxiety disorder" I really doubt it.
