Anxiety

My mom is in nursing school big time so she receives many information regarding physical and mental health because nurses handle both sides. Her bachelor's degree is also in psychology so she has plenty of history in the topic. Her current topic in school is a lot of the psychological aspects and she's dealing personally with a lot of kids with some scary issues.

So as we were discussing the general psychological topic last week, she mentioned the anxiety disorder and thinking I might have that so, what did I think? I already have a seizure disorder so adding other disorders on top of it, I never find thrilling, especially not a mental disorder. I asked her why she thought I might have that and why she was fishing for a bizarre disorder. She mentioned how tremendously jumpy I am. One day, I was standing down in the laundry room, looking at a large quilt I was folding, suddenly looked up and she was simply standing in the doorway and I jumped back and let out a huge gasp with some weird noise. She also pointed out I had a bizarre look and my face like shook or quivered. Yeah, I was weird. So you can imagine if someone actually tries to scare me, it's bad. I've been like that for a very long time but she said no, I didn't use to be like that and something has changed.

I looked up the other signs of an anxiety disorder and really don't fit most of them so I pointed that out to her and we both got some laughs. She mentioned that I am often on her mind. She tells me often that I cannot worry so much about the things that I have no control over but I am "one of those people." Some things even if I "vent" regarding, doesn't make me feel any better. Other things if I vent over, will most likely get me in trouble. Thus, what do I do? Keep it all inside. What good does that do me? Absolutely fucking nothing! So with her thinking I have an "anxiety disorder" I really doubt it.