Pissed

So this morning I totally got screwed...no, not in a good way. I get up, start the usual morning routine and my mom was also up. She started letting dogs out so I helped while I was racing around getting ready for school. Then, I was running late so I raced out the door while trying to put my gloves on, carry my heavy bag and check my watch. I ran about half way up the street then called my mom to tell her the girls were still outside and needed to be brought in. Then she gets on the phone and was like, oh didn't you notice, I'm not at home...I'm in Florence (a town like ten minutes from my town). I was like what?? She said I hadn't done the things she wanted me to (bathing one dog and brushing another) so she was leaving. I wasn't doing what she expected of me so she wasn't going to do what I expected of her. ie: Her staying home with Caleb while I'm at school. So, I had to turn around and walk back home absolutely furious. Had she warned me last night that those things needed to be done by morning or else, I would have stayed up all freaking night long rather than miss classes. Every single one of them take attendance and I've used now 2 of the 3 free days before my grade drops. The first time was when she had a doctor's appointment and couldn't take Caleb so I stayed home. This was just a stupid reason to miss. So I came home and sent an email to all my professors saying sorry, she bailed on me and at this hour (by now it was 6:20) it's not like I could call anyone to sit with him.

So now I've sort of had the day off. I've been doing the things I was supposed to already have done. I'm still pissed and her whole crap about it being my own fault and if I didn't straighten up and talk to her she'd do it again tomorrow and the day after. (When she originally came home she asked me if the nurse for my Gramma had called and I told her to not even talk to me, just leave me the heck alone...she didn't like that.) So I'm civil enough, if she asks me a question I respond but it's not like I go out of my way to talk to her. I'll do what she asked but I'm not going to apologize for anything and I certainly don't need to sit down and discuss our feelings with each other. She's unhappy with me, got it. I'm furious with her, I'm quite sure she got that. End of discussion. I'll do what she expected, now she can do what I expect and we're even.

My teachers have all been really good with me in understanding my situation with Caleb and her. They've all been satisfied seeing as I sent the email very early and had a legit reason. I've never missed a class other than the one I mentioned so I have a good record with all of them. My geology teacher wrote me back saying he didn't know that I had a kid so we've been talking via email. He has a fourteen year old and I was like shocked. I though he was early 30s, maybe 31? I suppose he could be about that age and just had his son young. Heck I'll be 32 with a 14 year old so it's completely plausible. He's fun to talk to and offered to stay Friday after class and go over everything we did today rather than me just copying notes from someone else which I thought was nice. I've never had a teacher offer that, usually they say just to get notes from someone. I told him I had German right after his class so I couldn't do that. Unless he has free time after that (and before I catch my bus) then I'll copy a friend's notes who's also in the class. So I'm still frustrated with my mother but I'm trying to be civil and at least I know I can catch up relatively easily when I go back in Friday.