I watched you walk out the door.
Tried to hold your hand but it simply slipped away.
Tried to hold you in my arms but you were already gone.
Simply stood, dumbfounded that I lost you in so little time.
Suddenly I stand, alone and unsure,
Questioning my every move,
My own sanity.
Should I have fought harder to hold on?
Or was it simply time to let go?
I told you I wanted you and I did.
I told you I needed you and I did.
And now I’m losing you and feel powerless to change it.
I may travel down other paths,
But I will never forget my first path.
The one that brought me both pleasure and pain.
So my dear, I may have already lost you or you might have decided to wait for me just ahead.
Either way, know this,
I will catch up to you.
One day I will hold you in my arms once again and never let go.
31 comments:
seems like u broke someone's heart or someone broke yours..!!
well, i would never admit to my own heart being broken. im much too proud to say that. :) as for breaking someone else's heart, i know i have and that is something i regret. i feel ive lost a great friend because of it. but quite honestly, this poem was for me. it was not about a person at all, it was about my dreams. im sort of at a rough spot right now where all my previous plans got killed and im trying to rework everything so i can still achieve my goals. its hard having your whole future planned out and within a time span of about 30 seconds, watching it all fall apart. i miss my friend, i miss my dreams, this poem covers both...
you lost him?? means?? what a fag, he couldnt be friends with ya just coz you dumped him?? what a loser!!!
lol i dont quite know what happened there...ud have to ask him i guess. we stayed friends for a while and then it just stopped. ask him, let me know what he says. ;)
how wld i kn that? i dont even know him!! n seems like u dont really care either....lol
uh huh...of course you don't know him...silly me. lol and since u dont know him, and accordingly dont know me, why would you say it seems like i dont care?
It’s your personal life, and I have right to intervene. But to be very honest....it does seem from your replies and your blog (I read few of your articles) you have too much pride (as you say) and ego...I guess, so I have reasons to believe that you simply don’t care. Because if u did...u would have made efforts to find out as to why he wouldn’t talk to ya anymore..(I don’t know what his problem is and yes, I dont know you guys) but what surprises me is that this poem does reflect that you really loved or liked him a lot and you do miss him... :) But when I asked you what happen, you appeared to be very casual or indifferent and you didnt have a clue as to how or why you lost your dear friend, so I guess you really don’t care…so I am confused…lol
I meant ..I have "NO right" Sorry abt the typo
yes i am a very proud person, and i have a large ego, ill be the first to admit that. because of that, i will not beg nor will i go crawling back to someone. so i really dont have a clue why i lost him, but that was his decision. i seem casual and indifferent because i have nothing else to do. what would be better...crying? i cant change the past so i let it go, no point in hanging on. he should know how i really feel, id like to think im a pretty easy person to read and hes known me long enough to be able to read me. anyone could tell you how much my friends mean to me, i would never casually toss one aside, but when i feel as if i have been tossed, i will not look back. call it pride, ego, indifference, whatever you want. "what manner of iron will, must some people possess, to be always looking forward, to never accept regress." i take it you know who wrote that...
lol..ooh boy ..too much temper to handle...no wonder he doesnt want to look back at ya...good luck lady!!! fucked up attitude i must say..!!! bingo...
ooh harsh! lol you have no idea how far my temper stretches...it is sad tho. we were such good friends, i still care about him and think about him often but all good things must come to an end right? i dont ask him to look back, if he doesnt want to stop and think about me, that is his perogative. i still think about my friend from preschool who i havent seen since i was about 5, so i will not soon forget my current friend either. as for your luck, you can keep it. i dont need it, i wore out my supply long ago and yet have managed. speaking of fucked up attitudes...who only communicates under anonymous? or could it be that a certain man's pride is such to equal that of a certain fucked up, tempermental woman? so bingo right back...
Well, wish I had a blog so I could tell ya my name...but does that really matter…coz frankly speaking I don’t even care who u are or ur name for that matter...I just read...n when I come across some dubious contents like that of yours, all I do is pull out some conversation...if you don’t like freedom of speech, or criticism, then u can change ur comments sections privacy to only those ppl who wanna write only good stuff about ya...I still don’t care...I am not trying to preach ya….I may be wrong, and I am not saying that you have to listen or agree to what I write…
As for the fucked up attitude...we both know what I meant by that. It seems you just don’t try too hard u lazy bum...u loose a guy n u also loose some precious plans for ur life. I am sure u screwed up wt ur acads...i guess!!! lol. not too hard to guess that in ur previous replies...so that makes me believe tht although you may be working hard, you are certainly not giving tht extra effort..n that shows up in your in ur relation with your guy(seems like you didnt even try-so y blame him either??) as well as ur personal life...(u need not beg or loose ur pride...in achieving wht you consider close or dear to you…that’s not how things work)..So...grow up kid....n ooh yes...putting up someone else's quotes wont make ya brave...so keep the big words for urself...lol....
well nash, seeing as it was your blog i thought ud be flattered i used your quote! i dont need to put my messages on private, i have nothing to hide from you or anyone else. you especially should know that by now. why is it we have to go thru some shit on my blog rather than you just ask me? did you not take a moment to think about why i texted you that day? did you not then stop and wonder why that was the last you heard from me? yes i lost the plans for my life, that was my own goddamn fault, but as for us, it takes two to tango baby. so as for your irritating, childish comments, you can keep them. i told you in the very first message this wasn't even about you. So, "Mr. Adult" i expected more out of you and it seems you are the only one still acting childish. should i perhaps leave your full name and blog address so when people are reading these stupid messages they can go visit your page too? would a little publicity perhaps make you feel better?
wait a min....i am little confused....whom did ya address the last msg? u r indeed funny...n i told ya...ul be the first one to kn if i get my own blog...u can do all the publicity stunts u want...:) once again ...u lost me completely!!
oh do spare me the theatrics. i know your diction, your writing style, and even slight insults. yes i am funny, but you are irritating me now and we both know that is not a smart move. however, you were always easily lost so i guess i cant expect any different now.
Wow....this is great....now I at least know what irritates ya...so good... :) u seriously don’t have a clue who I am...do yaa?? lol ...but it seems like someone else gonna get screwed up...n I still don’t care...lol....n I guess its little unfair (rather stupid) to judge something over diction, writing style(wow) and wait a sec....insults...??? You are awesome babe..!!! Do me a favor...give me this guys blog id...or full name as u said...:) I really wanna screw you both over this...this gonna be fun..yeah...!!!
This is so fucking hilarious…someone else gets the credit for my misdeeds… haha...well it still works for me....!!! hahahaha
btw, incase you are wondering why the hell am i so interested in your blog...well it's because i think, your articles are interesting for a 17 year old, but you are not too good handling your temper...lol...that pushes me to make more fun of ya...because you get more angry...lol...I know I am wicked...hahaha
ah the true colors finally come thru...
news flash for ya babe: life isn't fair. deal with it. also, if you don't like my blog, my temper, by style, or anything else, don't read it. i didn't ask you to, i didn't write anything for you, i dont give you anything to read it. so now i have just one question for you...why?
ooh come on, be a sport. A couple of messages before, you were all set to tell me the full name, id bla bla. And ooh wait, since you dont hide anything, why not publish other messages:haha.
and the answer to your question: WHY!!
I read you poem and other articles, I asked you a very simple question. You answered it right. I still think that guy is a fag. No body breaks friendship over a breakup. You win there. So he definately is not in my good books. As far as your other replies. -100 points on you. You blew it up. definately i dont get anythng outta doing this crap on your blog. But who said I want anything from ya. I am having fun; n its more fun to see ya getting irritated. lol
BINGO!! back to ya!! hahah
i am not a sport. i am a "sport" with my friends. you are not included in that group so i don't need to be anything to you. really, i dont even owe you civility, thats my personal gift to you. this whole facade is rediculous but ill humour you, and the rest of the world that will read these stupid comments and wonder what the fuck is going on. yes, the stupid messages between a girl and her ex, damn this is worse than high school. but ok mr. anon, we'll play along. first of all, i dont answer questions right or wrong. i answer them and you take them as you will, i personally dont give a shit. second of all, i dont know why he ended the friendship. i think it was simply because he couldn't accept the fact that it was done. some guys can be friends with their exgirlfriends, others can't. he one of them, granted i at least thought he could give me some shred of decency as to just let it go and then leave it rather than using "other people" but apparently i overestimated his maturity level, silly me. As for my -100 points, you can take them and shove them up your ass. hows that? i hope you enjoy every minute of it cuz that will be the only action you'll get. but i am glad that you are man enough to admit that you are the type of immature, dim-witted, sadistic asshole that gets pleasure out of irritating other people. kudos to you on that one. once again...you know where to shove it. i loved the guy i used to know, now i realize he was nothing but a fake. i had family and friends tell me he was a waste of time but i wouldn't listen, i said i loved him and that was what mattered. silly me, i should have listened. he was a waste.
lol; good for ya, you realized that. Thats why they say that a 17 year old should always listen to her family and friends; haha. Too bad you wasted your time. And I see all the hatered coming outta for him. I wonder how he will feel when he gets to know that his x-girlfriend hates him so much.hahaha.
As for he using you? I didnt get that part, but whatever; yeah we both agree that he is an asshole; so hi5, hahaha; and about he being fake, I dont know what you meant by that. btw i wonder what kinda girl friend you would have been,any thoughts..lol..
i dont hate him, i regret him. theyre totally different things. if i hated him i would have never wanted to be friends with him, regretting him means its something i carry with me, and me alone. oh, btw, i never said he used me...those were straight out of your mouth doll, not mine. being fake was that he led me to believe one thing and then turned around and became something totally different. i like to think i am a good girlfriend. i bend over backwards for my guy but i know with him, there were simply some things i couldn't give him. he always told me i was too independent, i am, but that just means i need someone who is a strong enough character on their own who doesn't feel threatened by that fact. know what i mean?
you guys are crazy! I dont believe he would dump you over that.May be that you dont know his side of the whole story, or may be he had reasons,or on the other hand he simply didnt understand you, or it could be ur fault too, anyways; this is going way to personal now, and to be honest, you both suck. I am outta this freak show.
n oh btw; since I have the balls to accept the fact that I am crazy, stupid, asshole, i wish to tell ya one more thing, i got thro your page thro his..:)(nish-o-nash)hahaha. incase you wonder why he deleted his latest enntries and blocked anonymous ppl frm writing on his blog...thts me...hahaha..WICKED ME. But i must mention he didnt react or abused you the way you did!!! lover boy!!but he's still a fag! hahaha
Dont worry I wont share our converstaion with him, because I didint share his with yours!! so you can trust me on that.
Alios!!
Andrew.
hmm i dumped him remember? he simply ended the friendship. keep your facts straight. and its hard to know the other person's side of the story if they don't talk to you. and obviously it wasn't too personal since you already knew all this anyways and have decided to go on for all these comments...and i don't trust you. you have to earn my trust, and you certainly haven't. you're lucky i respect you enough to talk to you, trust is way too personal, and that my dear you lost a while ago. :P
alright bitch!! since you dont trust me, and you dont care either, I am going to post this conversation on to his.hahaha. That bastard is not replying, so i dont know what to do. He has blocked me on his blog, so I have emailed him. Lets see what that fag has to say about his beloved bitch. hahahahaha
wow shows what a low class individual you are. yes i am a bitch, grow up big boy and realize the world isn't all about flowers, ponies, and everyone being sweet and helping each other. how old are you...11? and to call someone a bitch or a bastard you have to know a little bit more about their personality. by saying those things it only makes you look bad. and by emailing him and posting on my blog is simply harrasment...another sign that you have no class or sense of respect.
wow seems like you are the only one who knows all about personality...huh? judging your own bf and abusing him?? you think you know everythng about your guy?? i doubt that!! i dont think you have any rights to judge me either; lol. n oh btw, i mailed him even before you could publish them here on your blog.
what a complete loser you are!! now i know why you dont do too well on your grades!! spend less time answering assholes like me, and you be fine. kiss my ass!!
well when name calling becomes involved with people you don't even know, it only makes you look bad. and when did i ever judge him or abuse him? those are all your words, not mine. and no, i don't know everything about my ex. i dont think you can ever know everything. ive been best friends with a girl for over 8 years and i still don't know everything about her. and when did grades get brought into this? not once did i mention grades. so nash, would you still like to keep up this anonymous shit? leave me alone, leave my blog alone, and you of all people should know i don't kiss ass...let alone yours. so you can take your comments, your insults, and your pride, and give them to someone who actually cares cuz it's no longer me. you made damn sure of that. we're done, go away.
haha..its good to know you think that way. I made him belive that its you when i was writing to him.So it still works. but he was smart-he has some tracking software so he knew it wasnt you. You cld be smart enough to use the same and ul know for sure!!As for the grades, I told ya, you mentioned that in one of your msgs. I am not as smart as you to judge things on my own. and if you want, i can send you my conversations with him..haha..this is gtg interesting now. I was about to stop, but now, we are heading into jsut what I wanted. n ooh yes, he didnt mention to me anything about ur grades. your myspace was enough..gotthca...hahaha
last time. leave me alone. don't read my blog if you can't be decent. do not leave comments. do not contact me. leave me the fuck alone.
wow that was frustrating lol
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