Soul Stealing

I have come to realize that arabic is taking over my very soul, whether I like it or not. My dreams aren't even safe from it anymore...

Last night, I attempted to get in bed early which I sort of did, 3:00 to be exact. Then, I couldn't even fall asleep. I sat there for 35 minutes while debating if I should just get up and do something until 4 or 5 when I could actually sleep but I was determined to sleep and then get up at a resonable hour, about 10. So I did get to sleep finally, and I did get up at 10 but of course felt exhausted cuz I haven't been getting up till 11 lately. I stayed up for a while, did a few things, still felt exhausted and decided to go back for a quick snooze. I was alseep for about a half hour and still managed to have a bizarre dream.

I dreamt that my mom and I were at some event and we were sitting at this big round table with a white table cloth on it. Next to us were 2 other girls, looked a little bit older than me, not by much, and the seats on our other side were empty. As I sat there looking around, I heard arabic and automatically zoned in on it. The girls next to us were having a conversation in arabic. I can't remember all that was being said but they were saying (I think) something about someone in their class. They were laughing and going at a pretty good speed. I figured they had to be at about my level, maybe one lower. So I sat there thinking I should be able to keep up with all of this but there was some vocabulary I didn't recognize so that made me think they might be one level above me...who knows. Then, of course, my mom had to look at me and kind of nod towards them like I should jump in. Just about the time I was considering it, I woke up. So now, my dreams aren't even in english. I listen to arabic music, talk in arabic, hell I sometimes even think in arabic, and now...I have to freakin dream in arabic! Is nothing safe from it?? lol So this language has taken over my mind and soul, its sad...and yet I still continue to learn it. I told my mom about it this morning and she said it was probably a good sign because it shows my brain is still working on it, even if the thought is rather terrifying. So terrifying or not, it slowly takes over, next thing I know Im going to be putting random arabic words in my every day speech with people...oh wait, I already do that too!!! ARGH!!!!!