Just Another One of Those Days

Ever just have one of those days where you make a complete fool of yourself? I definitly have. Actually, I think I particularly enjoy having them because I have so many. I think perhaps one of my biggest problems is that I'm too trusting. Granted, if I meet someone and right off they act like a jerk then I don't trust them as far as I can throw them. However, if the person seems decent then I don't have a problem. So how is it that every time, it seems to come back and bite me in the ass?

So now, when I look back on these scenarios I just think, "How did I not see this coming?" Well, actually I did see them coming, most of them anyway. I still sit there though and say "no" and decide to give people the benefit of a doubt. I have to get slapped upside the head before I accept that. I've done it so many times you'd think I'd learn. Really, it's not even with just me, a lot of my family is like that...maybe it's hereditary. lol

I used to think my biggest obstacle was my temper. Anyone who knows me can attest to that. However, I think another big problem (not quite on the same level but close enough) is that I am too trusting. Then, when that trust is broken, I get overly pissed off that I even allowed that person close enough other than to know my name. Sad, isn't it? That's why I think my temper still rules the day, I stay upset for a very short time while I stay pissed off for a very, very long time. So, thats why I generally accept blame for other peoples irritations. It's like seeing a steam roller coming straight for you and saying, "No, it's not going to hit me, it'll stop." So when the steam roller hits you, you can't blame the steam roller, you saw it coming and did nothing. Thats just what I do and thats why I say it's really my own damn fault. The way I treat people, and the way other people treat others are often different. I see the truth and think I'm just being judgemental when I really knew it all along. If other people were to see what I see, they would turn tail and run while I stand there and question it. So theres my bit of psychological analysis on myself.

It's amazing how these little tidbits can help you figure out so much not only with yourself but with other people. It's like having your own little shrink in your head. lol And who knows you better than...you?